thoughts & everything else

"Contentment consists not in adding more fuel, but in taking away some fire."

Mon, 27 Aug 2012 12:23:40 -0400

“Contentment consists not in adding more fuel, but in taking away some fire.”

- [Thomas Fuller]

nope.

Mon, 27 Aug 2012 12:22:00 -0400

taking these headphones back too. argh. i want really good, awesome headphones, but i’m realizing until i spend the money, that ain’t gonna happen.

jeezy pete

Sun, 26 Aug 2012 21:30:55 -0400

i think my headphone search is over. lordy. i think i’ve returned 4 pairs. : ) PICKY. PICKY. In other news, I stick with my original opinion that mowing the yard blows.

a typical day in my life

Thu, 19 Jul 2012 22:24:12 -0400

today i…

dressed/fed easy e and packed 2 lunches.

took e to daycare.

went to work.

came home.

make dinner for me and e.

cleaned and mopped kitchen.

started a load of laundry.

mowed front and back yard.

read books to e/put him to bed.

a blog post worth sharing

Tue, 10 Jul 2012 09:41:43 -0400

http://mightygirl.com/2012/07/05/divorce-field-guide-best-advice/

My sis sent me this and I really enjoyed this gal’s perspective.

call me laura ingalls

Fri, 06 Jul 2012 11:28:08 -0400

we had no power last night starting about 6 pm but it was not that big of a deal. we went to the gym and then home, but still no power. promptly went to target! just found flashlights and e slept with one. he does not like candles! the whole fire thing? who knows? now i know.

i enjoyed reading by candlelight. it was kind of lovely to go to bed early and once my iphone died, it was nice to not know what time it was and to just wake up whenever.

i was ok with it all until this morning when i realized i could not listen to npr and more importantly, could not make my coffee!!! right before we left the house, the lights came back on. figures.

remember

Thu, 05 Jul 2012 10:43:27 -0400

I am not in control. My crystal ball? Gone, shattered to shit. Embrace the “delicious ambiguity,” girlfriend.

"Some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to..."

Thu, 05 Jul 2012 10:37:33 -0400

“Some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity.”

- Gilda Radner

wow

Thu, 10 May 2012 23:20:05 -0400

it’s may 10th. how did this happen? around a year ago, my world was totally turned upside down. little did i know but this event was the best thing that could have happened to me. i feel right-side-up now. : )

why, hello

Thu, 29 Mar 2012 10:49:00 -0400

finally had my run-in with the super cute boy that sits on the other side of the building enroute to the coffee machine. i’ve been noticing his public radio coffee mug for months. yum.

but, really, who cares? i don’t have time to date. it’s spring! it’s my favorite time of year.

it’s just too hard to orchestrate baby sitters, etc. plus, who needs a boyfriend when my 2-yr-old tells me lovely things like, ‘you look beautiful’ and ‘i love your hair.’ : )

both of which i heard last night. he’s so awesome. love that monkey.

requirement

Mon, 19 Mar 2012 11:00:18 -0400

i like the boys with the canoes.

concerts

Fri, 16 Mar 2012 15:18:00 -0400

ok. it is official. i am too old to go to shows at the orange peel. i had not been there since maybe 2003. the sound wasn’t as great as i remember. i was annoyed at waiting in line for the bathroom. the beer was expensive. i had beer spilled down my back and ultimate annoyance was the doors were swung open on the side of the room where smokers are allowed to go out. so it smelled like smoke. i have about zero tolerance for cigarette smoke.

i’m glad i did it. i enjoyed hearing givers cover the talking heads. that made it worth it. dr. dog sounded great and they looked super cute.

breaking hearts

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 23:12:00 -0400

and…it has started. i’m just not into wasting my time/someone else’s time. i can’t do it. i think about terry. i think about gary. even scott. about what i know about myself. i must rely on my gut. so many times i did not and i would like to think that i learned something from those experiences. time. age. those things have taught me a few things. today, i had a moment. a very ‘jessie’ moment. i swear the older i get, the worse i get at being, uh, ‘direct.’ call it ‘blunt,’ call it whatever. yes, i am. a rose by any other name is still a rose, right?

hot tubs

Sun, 11 Mar 2012 22:47:14 -0400

i really like hot tubs. that’s all i am going to say about that…

to dos

Tue, 06 Mar 2012 22:23:00 -0500

taxes. boo hiss.

clean off desk (find desktop)

dating

Tue, 06 Mar 2012 22:09:47 -0500

i can’t keep up with my virtual love life! ha ha. jeezy pete. i think i hate dating. what happened to the telephone? i sucked at dating before and i still suck at it.

i am in love.

Mon, 27 Feb 2012 23:16:09 -0500

i am in love.

dusk and still not ready to go home.

Mon, 27 Feb 2012 23:12:23 -0500

dusk and still not ready to go home.

yoshimi

Mon, 27 Feb 2012 23:09:08 -0500

still battling pink robots. still kicking pink robot ass.

not a good start...

Fri, 24 Feb 2012 11:03:00 -0500

to my kid-free weekend. scott is such an idiot. jeezy pete.

i don’t think i can turn up my music loud enough today to drown out all the negative thoughts, memories, rage. argh. can i just say that i really don’t like seeing his car. with it’s pa license plate? asshole. i miss that car. i can’t look at the reserved parking spaces for hybrid/fuel eff. cars here at work without feeling a tinge of bitterness.

today, all the kids are matching at their internships. weird to know that a year ago we were celebrating and really excited about our impending move to philadelphia. i remember us both being really happy and i was proud of him for getting his first choice. what the hell?!? a year. wow. i feel really emotional about it. bitter. didn’t expect this. apparently, the emotion i feel today is bitter.

what i want: to leave work and go hike somewhere. cry in the woods. fuck it. i should be pretty happy. i have some fun plans for this weekend and i get to see ande and dan later this evening.

is this related to the fact that i have a date saturday? is this my fucked up way of my heart telling my brain that i might not be ready to do such a thing yet? i feel kinda lukewarm about this dude. i guess i could cancel. it’s just a date right? he seems nice enough.

i’d rather it be with the cute boy who strangely appeals to me. that would be a lot more exciting. what’s that boy doing?!? i leave that one alone i think. maybe the timing is just off. maybe it isn’t meant to be.